Questions

So since Thurs night when my grandma died I've had lots of questions running through my head. Not sure how to express them all. But the big one right now is that I'm questioning how I'm feeling.

You know humanly speaking I'm supposed to be sad right now. I do but more for the other people who are affected by her death. The only problem is that I feel happier than I do sad. Not because I'm glad she's gone but because she's no longer in pain. She no longer has to worry about her heart, diabetes, and all her medication that went with it. She is now living in a total worry free world.

Five years and three months ago my Uncle Nathaniel died. At the graveside service I had this small picture play through my mind of my grandma meeting him and telling him all things that have happened in the last five years. It brought me to tears but it was a mourning of joy.

Maybe it's alright if I feel this way but I am questioning it right now.

Talk by Coldplay

Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you
Cos I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and
I want to talk to you
Oh I want to talk to you

You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung, or do
Something that's never been done

Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle?
You can't find your missing piece
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they're talking it to me

So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung, or do
Something that's never been done, or do
Something that's never been done

So you don't know where you're going
But you want to talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You'll tell anyone who will listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all

Let's talk
Let's talk

Let's talk
Let's talk

So I've started listening to Coldplay recently. I'm liking them a lot.